I really like it.
As I treat this blog as more of a diary of thoughts and stuff while I create things, I felt like blabbing about a topic that was basically the air I breathed around me for a significant portion of the last few years of my life - fashion, digital especially.
Until rather recently, I really had absolutely no fashion inclined bone in my body. It's hard to want to dress yourself up when you have next to no self confidence and you're the subject of bullies for being the fat, awkward, weird nerd girl kid. Then suddenly I was thrown into the world I knew absolutely nothing about but I had to learn and learn fast so that I could recreate it in the digital world.
Now, for the first time in my life (adult or otherwise) I have finally managed to get medical issues under control, lost a considerable amount of weight and I can wear normal sizes you find in most stores. It's been a really weird adjustment. I always feel like everyone around me is staring at me wondering what the hell this weirdo is doing shopping in their normal people's size stores. I'm fully aware no one is staring at me (for fat shame reasons anyway) but that feeling is going to take time to go away if it ever does. Feelings about it aside, it's been... fun, emotional to be able to buy clothes and enjoy what I look like in them.
While it's fun in the real world, it's even more rewarding in the digital one where I can literally make whatever the heck I feel like at the time - and I'm gonna make it in purple, duh. I make something I like, put it on my avatar, and I do a little happy squee.
Yeah, just wanted to blab about fashion and my toe-dipping into it.
I really like eccentric purple gothic stuff.💜
Can't wait to get multiple interactive stores up that host what I have made so I can blab about this more, along with actual game dev stuff.
